IfYouMustIwill

I wish I could be perfect for you. I wish that I could be everything you deserve but I just can’t. I can’t be everything you deserve because I can’t even look myself over in the mirror. I can’t look at my own eyes and my face. I can’t look at the person who might be staring back at me. I just can’t. I could shut the world out and I don’t think anyone would notice. No one would really care that I’m there. No one would say ‘where is she’ or ‘Have you seen her?’ no one would see me. No one would care I’m a nobody. I just want to fade away and fly away from all I am a

She sat beside me in complete silence and in that moment I wanted to tell her everything, though where would I begin? It's hard to make people understand these kinds of things. "Sometimes... I'm not okay." I said softly. "I get really anxious, I have anxiety. Sometimes..." I bit my lip, but she was listing intently. "Sometimes it really... Hurts." I paused for a short while taking deep breaths. I knew she was still there trying to understand what I mean, what I was saying. She was looking too deep because this time, my words had no other meanings. For once I was being straight forward. With my eyes still closed I drew another breath. "Some

Really? Again? Seriously? I had this problem just last week. I need to write. Please let me write. ... ... ... ... You know what? Fine! "The Complete Sherlock Holmes" has been begging to be read. Suck on that blockage!